Hey there Delilah

Hey there..

Ive been wanting to write a new entry and each time i click this, i feel empty. suddenly. sebab i run out of mood. haha. anyhow, this is an attempt to get my mood back. Cuma tulis sikit dulu before the mood comes back. For now, i have nothing to do. seriously. i just wait for dear sv to return my draft and then i can start with the amendments. Selain tu, (skema) busy jugak fikir this and that for W-Day. busy sebab pening nak pilih mane satu boutique yang offer from start to the end. tapi bukan la semua package includes, perhaps the dress, pelamin, card, make up altogether. catering probably we will return to the same caterer during E-day. sebab dishes memang best. so much varieties. hantaran, have not finalized yet. semua perlu duit. duit tak banyak, bergantung lagi dengan parents -__- . bila tengok orang lain yang dah mampu untuk berbelanja sendiri, rasa sangat down -__________-

lepas bulan 1 tahun depan, inshaAllah we dah ade financial sndri. we can manage to do things together. and confirm la Mr.A yang handle pasal duit sebab i cant. okay, i can be a good organizer, cleaner, what else??? hahaha.

sekarang onwards, survey. survey sampai muntah. laaa...................... -________________________-

*-______- this typically looks like a frog. haha

Btw, i started to browse thru website yang jual barang hiasan untuk rumah. why dont u check it here? :) please click

People who is Innocent

Sekarang, kita dah dewasa. Sangat grown up, sampai ada kawan yang dah nak masuk anak dua. But it doest not matter kalau kita tak kawin lagi, atau tak ada pasangan lagi. Bukan itu yang menjadi persoalan. tapi kesimpulannya, kita sudah dewasa sehingga mampu mengatur kehidupan kita dan orang lain (anak dan suami, isteri, etc). Jadi, di sini, untuk mengatur kehidupan memerlukan keupayaan fizikal dan mental yang sewajarnya. Bukan bererti, kita perlu gagah, tapi cukup sekadar sihat tubuh badan, mental dan spiritual. 

Bila, kita dengar masalah harian di mana-mana, terjadinya disebabkan sesetengah individu yang dikatakan "innocent", apa yang kita fikirkan? Dalam lingkungan umur sebegini, how innocent should that person can be? Contohnya, berkongsi idea yang tak wajar dalam majlis-majlis rasmi, perbualan kosong yang sangat tak wajar, adakah individu itu innocent? aku rasa, ianya lebih kepada situasi kurang matang.

Seriously, banyak kes macam ni terjadi. Sesetengah aku klasifikasikan sebagai tidak mendapat pelajaran secukupnya dari rumah or tidak observant. Hanya mementingkan diri sendiri dalam konteks untuk keselesaan diri sendiri. Bersikap tidak matang dan mengambil keputusan yang terburu-buru membantu ke arah peningkatan permasalahan ini. Siapa yang patut dipersalahkan? siapa yang patut mengambil tindakan?

Kita semua dah besar.

Dah patutnya ada arah tujuan. Arah tujuan yang membina seharusnya selari dengan sikap dan pemikiran yang mencorakkan kematangan. Kesilapan lalu banyak memberi pengajaran, jadi gunakan.

Bukan hanya memandang dan menunding jari ke arah orang lain.

itu sahaja.

p/s: dalam banyak manusia, wanita yang paling pelik.termasuk jugak aku, mungkin?

Read Me

Have you ever feel anything in the past haunting you back? in every glance of reality keeps calling the memories. The one that you buried long time ago, coming and calling you. This is not a ghost story anyway. hahaha. i just describing the situation.

This is pathetic me. No matter how hard i try, i keep questioning myself, can i get through this?  

Its so easy to reach my mind,

either blog or twitter.

p/s: u can ask my mood anytime! :)
p/s/s: not much people ask that.

p/s/s/s: cause its not easy to read my mind by looking the body-language.

my current favorite moment, is to look at this open window each time i take my bath in the morning. the sunshine, gives me the mood for the whole day. i like the shine on my face facing the sun. :)

Do i look like i have the mood for the whole day? ;P

Ramadhan Kareem

This morning, it is wonderful. I woke up from the right side of the bed. And so happy, bless indeed. Few things that actually i don't favor, so much. Mumbling to myself so frequent, cause i know there is no one would listen clearly and understand fully the concept of me talking. About a thing, about the cleanliness. Yes, i can just talk twice or thrice to him, but the rest, i have to swallow each time it happened. I hate to complain so many times and yet the result is still the same. So i rather chirping in the toilet while brushing the tiles. Why do people like to stay in this middle of dirtiness? How can they still holding a breath while taking the shower with.....*&^^&%^(*. Glad that i didn't post the photos here or u might be regret reading this post. Fully shit. Ladies/Grown-up-girls, please! This kind of attitude is nothing u can learn from the school. This come naturally to u! Use or logical thinking, pls. I know, u graduated from well known university, this kind of thing should be happened at least! i am getting fed up cleaning your endless mess. Ur room, luckily it does not stink. Or else, i am dying living with alive corp. Seriously, anywhere you go, please make sure it is clean. Your clothes, your items, your everything. People are looking. guys, just dont stare at the physical attraction that this kind of girl possess. But look at their inner side. I hate to say this. but, this is true. "U harapkan lady yang cantik, know how to rule the fashion, in the end, u terpakse hidup sampai bila-bila dalam rumah yang serabut, kotor, tak terurus, u want that? really want that??"

Gila.

I know this is crazy.

But before its too late, i already text-ed the person. She cleaned the mess. i hope its not only this time she understood. but for ALL time!!!

i woke up and witnessed this. MashaAllah

Days' counting

every year, we have 356 days except for leap year. and in a month we either have 28, 29, 30 or 31 days. but in a day, we only have 24 hours which in each hour only 60 minutes to breath. and 60 seconds fill each minute.

do u think the time u have enough to fulfill yr dream, perhaps yr work?


i am counting.


days and nights

it seems not enough.


MashaAllah

the day my BFF get married

Assalamualaikum

Hey all. to make it short, i went to my bff solemnization at Banting yesterday. we went rushed. came in with two cars. one made their way to Ipoh, while another one went straight to USJ after the ceremony. My soulmate, bff (Nana) and I took 45 minutes to reach Kelanang, Banting to attend the historical day of our bestfriend, Adha. She is now a wife to Mr. Adib (me and Adib always get into fight, because i hate him, LOL). -___- when we will have our quality time together sister? Perhaps when yr husband is away. hooray.. 

She was so beautiful in grey baju pengantin. So adorable and she was smizing all the time. yeah, with her two steps smile, she is always ready. :) never got nervous at all, and the best part was, she even directed us to take the pictures with the couple. Never got the tears running down, naaahh, she was so cool. Adib was caught trembling when the lafaz went on. even he spoke Adha name wrongly. muahahahaha. alhamdulillah, with a single pronouncement, both of them were husband and wife. Happy me to be there. InshaAllah, both of you will happily be with each other in any circumstances until heaven. :)

the wedding ceremony will be held 28th April, and i have to be the bridesmaid. :)

Smile. Just smile

what will you do, 

if a close friend of yours showing no excitation towards happy news that you informed?

what will you feel,

when somehow you get the return gift?

how will you react,

if your best buddy reach you like nothing had happened (but actually you had a fight unsettled)?

where would you go,

if all things that made you sad is from the person that you care so much?

are you gonna stay,

if everything that happened, happen in one time?

you have the answers. you have the right to make the decision. is either bad or good in the end. 

and me?

i will smile, pls no curse as i am big girl now.

Smile like nothing has happened!

:)

Everlynn, the best skincare product ever.

Assalamualaikum

Finally, i have the chance to update the blog. Pheww. Fine, its a fine day, despite the raining season the whole week. tomorrow, the UTP team will embark on inter-university squash tournament that will be held in Bukit Jalil. please pray for us to bring back medals. inshaAllah. anyway, i am not the participant, i am there to survey and witness the history. hahaha. i was reluctant to join since this inter-university tournament is a big game for me. perhaps you can say i am so much nervous to handle this. yeah. i just wanna have a look on how this tournament goes on. even though i have joined the UTP close squash tournament few months ago, but this one, i can say, its pretty big. i don't seem to see that i can put a challenge to any woman player if i joined. i am surely be defeated before the third round takes place. hahahaha. yeah, i did train everyday with the male team. few numbers you can count for the ladies to join squash training everyday. if you are lucky, perhaps one or two people in one week. naahhh, you see..

Well,

that's not the main point here. what is the more important is that i want to make a quick review on my daily skin care product, Everlynn. I have been using this product since November 2012 up to now, and what can i classified this skincare products, its the best product i have tried. Plus, it is made in France. i guess, most of the France product suits me well. I have went to skin specialist few years back since i have bad acne problems. it started in year 2002. two years later, i went for specialist to get consultation and tried the clinical products. and alhamdulillah, my skin started to recover. However, i realized that, after few years, my skin does not developed to become better moisture skin. It just helps to prevent the acne growth. i have no such skin product to apply to make my skin glowing or any mask to used. i have to depend all on the clinical soap and the acne solution especially during period time. i tried other products, but failed to make my skin looks better, but even worst.

Then, here it comes the Everlynn product after being promoted by my friend, Nita. i was so amazed to see the glowing skin she has. She showed me the Everlynn product. and she consulted me that i should try to buy the multiperfection cream. after made up decision, i purchased the Everlynn. Alhamdulillah, the skin started to moisture like what i expected. but, i observed minor exfoliation near the T section. it just took three days to disappeared. i keep continue using the skin care and for now, there are three products that i takes which are the Vitamin E soap, daily solution cream and multiperfection cream during night. I love my skin i have now. Owh, btw, i do consume fruits everyday (kiwi fruit or strawberries) to enhance the skin repairing. Alhamdulillah, this is what it looks like after 6 months using Everlynn..

no editing, took directly from my phone Samsung S3.

i would like to recommend anyone who has the skin problem just like me. stop using any make up to cover your skin. it will just damage the skin tissue. to get consultation or to purchase the Everlynn, kindly text/whatsapp/call my dear friend Nita (013-2202602). she stays in KL, perhaps u can just COD. or u may browse the website, by clicking this Everlynn.

Happy trying!

Sekarang ni minggu fitness

fitness semua dalam minggu ni. padahal, tesis masih lagi terbengkalai. bergerak sikit aje. arghh, susah nye nak dapatkan momentum menulis lagi-lagi technical term. and nak nampak educated and bagus dalam structural sangat payah. kau ade idea, tapi nak olah bagai nak gila. 

tapi bab pagi bangun awal untuk jogging memang semangat. semangat habis sampai muscle pain. tapi seronok sebab muscle sebelum ni dah start built, so enhance kan je lagi. dua minggu tinggal agak semput jugak aku nak catch up stamina mcm dlu. however, tadi jogging 1 stgh round plus jalan stgah round lagi kurang dr masa sebelumnya. start 7:33, end at 7:47. not bad gak la untuk 2.2 km. rate dalam 9.42km/h . kire orait la untuk newbie cam aku nih. ahahaha. 

supersaiya in action. muahahahaha. aku yang tak reti nak up up away. ahahah

it was fun. seronok sebab pagi-pagi memang la kalau ikutkan hati, xde maknanya nak berpeluh dekat padang tu. tapi after an hour spending to sweat, sangat berbaloi la.

nak dapatkan berat ideal balik. plisss. like dulu-dulu but fit. anyway, tengah training untuk squash skali. memag kene fit lah kan.. :)

the perfect life

tak semua yang kita mahukan dalam hidup akan jadi seperti yang kita impikan. tak semua yang kita dapat seperti dalam bayangan selama ini. dalam kehidupan, ada manusia yang mendapat lebih dari orang lain. dan ada juga yang kehilangan semuanya dalam sekelip mata. tak semua manusia bersyukur dengan segala kurniaNya. dan kerana itulah, ujian yang Tuhan berikan dalam bentuk kesenangan akan menentukan sama ada manusia itu mampu atau tidak menghadapinya.

perlu kita ingat, tak semua perkara yang kita lakukan can please everyone. yes. ada sesetengah rakan kita membuatkan kita bertanya-tanya, does she/he likes me? kadang-kadang we feel confuse. dan kadang-kadang, semua benda yang kita rasa kita kongsi bersama akan jadi persoalan. when the person does not react much with the subject u fuss about, then u feel something. ya, ada kawan yang sebegitu. jadi, daripada kita bersangka buruk, baik jauhkan sangat2 dari fikirkan tentang kawan kita. kan?

dalam perhubungan pun, cara kita menyayangi seseorang berbeza dengan pasangan kita. tak semestinya apa yang kita rasa dia akan rasa yang sama. pemahaman kita dan pasangan tentang sesuatu juga mungkin berbeza. beruntunglah jika kita mempunyai pandangan dan minat yang sama, tetapi berwaspadalah sebab kadang kala wujud persaingan. persaingan siapa yang lebih bagus. the ruling symptom sangat tak baik. memaafkan pasangan lebih bagus dari mewujudkan sengketa berterusan. saling support each other, will benefits both at the end. kan?

so, kesimpulannya, berfikir positif dan jauhkan perasaan hasad dengki, irihati, tak puas hati, benci membenci. senyum aja lah kan? :)

routine and 2013

routines of the day, banyak sangat. even sometimes, i only passed the things i remembered, like shower in the morning (petang pun kadang-kadang), brunch ( i skipped, always!), dinner, squash, thesis. ape lagi la. tapi this is the basic plus important things. other than that which i always plan to do will be the least i did. kesian betul menjadi diri sendiri.

i am ambitious, too much ambitious! tapi ambitious bile berangan tapi satu kerja at the end tak jalan. aish. where is my spirit on the time i have to do the task? pergi mana i am not sure. gile. sekarang dah nak masuk 2013. my age will turn 24 automatically. since i was born on 1st Jan, so, every new year i turn a year older.


sepatutnye lebih spiritual, lebih dedicated on work, semuanya lebih. kurang kontroversi, kurang buat dosa yang tak sengaja, ape lagi semua benda positive has to be increase, yang x elok pandai2 faham lah. kan?


so, before we begin the new life in 2013, lets refresh what we have done in 2012. yang lepas, just let be history, and the good one continue doing the good thing.


my writing is getting worse, i know that.

I must went...

Aku memang gile. Dont deny it. How that suppose to be after two months without updating any entry, even a short one! I have no time. Pardon me. I do like to publish one, but each time i did that, i have sense that the quality is not there. No passion like i have before. may be in certain times, i have no confidence if the entry should go public or rather to keep it private. i guess.

so, today. i have 20 final year students sitting in front me doing their 8-hours open book test. how ridiculous is that in my department have started to invent this all-my-brains-drain-out-test. Ohh gosh. if this happens during my time, i would kill myself bringing all the 2months luggage in the test room. Pity them.


Now let start doing other work. I have task that is killing me in my brain now. i have to start very soon or else end up crazy the whole night. I burn the midnight oil for this.


till then,
I must be crazy,
FhaHzh

Colors

yeah, i like to play with colors too much. mungkin ade yang xpercaya, i still keep my Buncho and all my painting items here. semua benda. from different size of brush up to numbers of pallet, dengan crayon, sketch book, u name anything, i have it here. hahaha. tu semua untuk emergency case, when i feel so stress or tengah bosan, i'll sketch. do whatever i wanna do dengan idea yang ade.

and things pun, when arranging things inside the wardrobe, everything is sorting according to color and size. so, senang nak differentiate baju and bile rase nak pakai color ape for the day, i just have to choose the design. senang kan?

they said im the right brained people. all involve with color, reading people emotions, creatives and easy to remember someone's face. hahaha. tapi lagi satu benda yang tak list dalam category right brained ni, i can remember number easily, mcm no hp, ic, address acc number, and orang yang suke nombor ni termasuk dalam kategori left brained. so, sbnrnye sy ni kategory ape?

center brained ke? :)

more about colors

i am easily attracted to purple and orange. but i did not consider most of my clothes to be bright, so normally i pair that with dull item so that x de la orang pening tengok the person. :)  

i have a friend yang consider from wealthy family, barang-barang pun semua brjename, tapi once kite tengok barang die, mostly dull and dark color. i have no idea kenape die suke sangat warne gelap yang each time i look at her, nampak gloom aje. 

 
 

Fashion?

a very huge topic i guess. how am i suppose to narrate this since i have no talent to share worldwide fashion topics right now. for me, the word fashion itself resembles the life of a person lives in. as an example to this, any occupation in this world would show their image of working by dressing the way they suppose to be. the cabin attendant with the well-know skirt, the businessmen with their blazers, students with their school attires and so on. but, other than working hours, did all this person impersonate or imitate others to dress? 

somehow, i would say that i am a fashion-geek but i did not dress what my minds told me. just because i have the principles saying that, environment and time consumes are the important factors before i dress up. here, as i live in the university that focus merely on engineering and business and i have no courage to look beyond than other normal students dress to class. maximum hours i spend for the lectures are not more than 6, so i normally pick the best shirt pair with denim pants, ordinary scarf, leather tote with oxford shoe. that's it.

weekend? i will wear long dress pair with cardigan, scarf, open toe heels, and a drawstring bag. or else, i just put my boot-cut denim as usual pair with loose denim boyfriend shirt, wedges and a shoulder bag. the same styles repeating each weekend whenever i went shopping. i have no desire to dress outside the box because of - no courage, unsuitable place to dress (Ipoh is not like KL, you dress more, you have more eyes on you, especially during prayer time, and it sucks!)??

Early this year, i enjoyed my day attending the Nuffnang event for bloggers. i matched my lycra dress with leather cardigan and accessories!! its the best moment because i finally sat down thinking what sort of things to wear to match well with the theme. 

i have few dress and blouse that i have not wear up to now. i didn't know when is the exact time to wear since i have no mood to entertain the envy-eyes looking at me later. ahahaha. (perasan). definitely have to think the best occasion to wear those. 

perhaps, my holiday time???

:)

Hello Kitty in the town

i had this weird dream. gile kau tido waktu maghrib. memang pandai. luckily i heard a phone call. woke up and the body feels like re-energized. memang melemahkan badan kalau tido waktu maghrib. especially waktu senja around 7 p.m. tapi sebab i was so tired and not having enough rest, i decided to take a nap. but it does not sounds nap if you over rest more than 30 minutes. i was alone. the air was dense (up to now). and i was highly affected. influenced to have a quality rest.

this evening, i had my late lunch in Hainan Chicken Rice Shop. before having the meal, i sat down quietly and thinking of how much did i spend having lunch here. rough visits are around 30 ++ for 2 years. can u do the math? i will (compulsory) order hainan fragrant rice, spicy slice fish, siamese chicken and white coffee with less sugar. for dessert, i will order fried ice cream. Hainan fried ice cream is consider rich to me because of its honey taste on top of the fried ice-cream! so yummeyh!

so, total price of my single meal is MYR23.60. so, just multiply with 35, and you will get...... 

how come Hainan Chicken Rice Shop tak buat membership card. boleh dpt 15% discount each time i visit, xpon, x payah tanye lagi what meal to order since most of the attendants tu kenal muke i ni. -__-

gile cantik kereta ni, driver is an old lady.... classic :)

Tummy

Last night dinner was early than usual. i skipped the lunch and all i knew was, stomach spinning at 5 p.m

Rushed to had my early dinner! the dinner was...

Happy face- happy tummy! 

Venue:

Pancake House International

Aeon Station 18

Among days

we, each, have 24 hours in our life, daily.

6 hours i spent on sleep. the remaining is 18 hours. with this 18 hours i spent my quality time with the housemates, research work, tuition, my close buddy and laughing, smiling whatever it is that i can spend.

seriously, when talking bout life, boleh cakap i am so much happy here, despite everything that happened.

so, i had my day with....

i am a happy person aite???

a dreamer

i am a dreamer,
sometimes the most beautiful one u never ever dream,
but in a blink of a second,
i can turn the way i dream to the most horrible one.

i just dream,
i never thought that is going to happen,
i live in my dream,
i create them
and i see them, all.

put a word to speak the dream, i aint the braver,
i rescue all, never give a chance
i dare myself,
i never thought would be true,
but until i found you,
i never thought of a different in life,
never see any shining eyes,
until i met you,
never feel so calm,
until i love you.


Thank you for a great moment we had together as a friend.
i really like, love, care you as much i care myself.

saranghae.

all about caffeine

i just remember how a caffeine would last long in my body and i had to face the migrain for the whole day. after a sip and another, i started to feel dizzy. that was the most horrible feeling i have ever had when i planned to burn the midnight oil, so i took the nescafe. it turned out bad, a bad nightmare!

so i decided to quit caffeine, awhile. 

until i had it today. lucky me, the caffeine wasn't killing my mood and the entire brain working optimally without feeling any symptoms as i mentioned above! yeah,  and that was the best hazelnut mocha i had (when only i tasted it once)! ahahaha.. its the complimentary set for my dinner. i ordered chicken curry with pandan rice and egg. its a wrap up for the day!

my hazelnut-mocha. yummeyhh

u have to face this face always, (setiap kali bace blog ni)